“As you walk to the boundary of your understanding into the twilight of uncertainty, exercising faith, you will be led to find solutions you would not obtain otherwise.” Elder Richard G. Scott.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

My LOVE Lincoln

I really love my kids. I personally think they are fantastic. I think that with my first "real" post, I should start with my firstborn. L was born 12 days late, Sept 23. I am glad he was born 12 days late. He was due Sept 11th. THE Sept 11th. When I woke up that morning, I was so excited. I remember getting my breakfast, sitting down and thinking that this was my day. Then, I turned on the T.V and remember thinking "well, THAT"S SICK". At that point and time, 1 plane had hit the building. I turned the channel a few times and realized that it was not a movie, that lives had changed forever. The way life had changed for 1 soon to be new mom in Milk River AB really did not want to have her child that day. I had waited not so patiently for this little human being to be born. All of a sudden, I really wanted to keep this child in me forever. He was safe. I could protect. If my child was born, I could not always protect my child's safety.

When he was born, he was the most AMAZING, wonderful soul. This wonderful human being was now in my arms after 29.5 hours of labor and 2 hours of pushing. My desire to protect with such raw emotions of the last 12 days still there. How could I be blessed with this soul when so many people were hurting. When their pain was so raw and deep, I had this wonderful blessing. MY life had changed for the better.

I believe in life BEFORE this life. I believe in life after death. I do not think that when we die, it ends. I believe that I am sealed to my family for forever. I believe it is my responsibility to live my life in a manner that is pleasing to the Lord, so I can live with him again. I also believe that it is my responsiblity as a parent to raise my children so that they will also have the same opportunity in the next life as I will. I want to teach them well and live with them again. When Sept 11th happened, I often wondered if he was not meant to come that day so he could comfort those spirits that needed comforting. He has the most wonderful, tender spirit. I know that my Heavenly Father REALLY knows what he is doing.

Love you L

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

just checkin

I've never done this before and I am beat, so just be patient with me and i'll get it figured out.