“As you walk to the boundary of your understanding into the twilight of uncertainty, exercising faith, you will be led to find solutions you would not obtain otherwise.” Elder Richard G. Scott.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

"Things gone right"

This year has kind of sucked.
I know, just what you want to hear.
But really, this is not a rant, I promise.

There has been a lot of crappy stuff that has happened this year.
It has been so stinking hard on me, physically, mentally, emotionally.
I just feel drained.
I am SO ready to kick 2010 to the curb and start off a new year and pray it's a gooder.

So one morning as I was out doing my morning papers, I was thinking about it.
I was thinking about how much had happened and how I was kinda at a point where I didn't want to even deal with it anymore.
Just wanted to hibernate until January 1st. 
Am I allowed to do that? 

So instead of focusing on the bad and crappy year, I decided I would focus on what seemed like the few shining moments of the year. 
And then I was quickly adding up how many wonderful things I had been blessed with in my life this year. 
And then I was quickly overwhelmed with all these amazing blessings and felt so grateful for them.

In a totally non specific order of  "Things gone right"
Was able to go to the Temple to do a session multiple times this year.
Was able to go to the Temple with the youth twice for them to do Baptism's for the dead.
Celebrated each of my children's birthday's, what blessings they are, happy and healthy and grateful to be blessed with amazing little ones.
Got released as YW teacher (NOT happy UNTIL)...
Got called as YW 1st counselor! WOOT WOOT!!! (Have I mentioned before that I LOVE my calling, if not, let me tell you, it is the BEST calling out there, honestly. My YW ROCK!)
Got to go to YW camp and there were NO bears! (That was literally an answer to prayers!)
Went camping in Banff with the family, once again, no bears, answer to prayers!
Got funding for our flood in our basement, once again, answer to prayers!
Got to spend many a day and night snuggling and cuddling with my kids, seriously, the best medicine that anyone could ever have. No prescription needed! 
Had my niece/almost daughter come and visit for 2 1/2 weeks in the summer.
Had my niece/almost daughter come and stay here since the end of December.
Got a job that works for me and is flexible.

As I have mentioned before, my niece A has been here since the end of November. What a blessing she is in our lives. My kids LOVE her. No, not just love her, they NEED her! They really do. She really fills some part of their life that no one else can reach. To say she is amazing is putting it mildly. Really. As I am typing this, she is teaching my 7 year old B grade 5 math ( I let B skip the afternoon of school today. I think it was a great choice!) She is so smart and perceptive of things I have been missing with my kids. I am amazed at how she picks up on simple clues my kids are giving to me that I am missing.

Fact is though, I LOVE her to bits too. Not just LOVE her but NEED her too. She fills some part of my soul that no one else can. You know how each of your children have a special place in your heart that no one else can get to? She has her own special place in my heart too. Just like my kids. There are times I refer to her as my daughter because honestly, I feel the same way to her as I do my kids. I love her as a daughter. I don't know why we have the relationship we do but I know I count it as one of my biggest blessings in my life. Right up there with my kids! 

To say she has been good for me is putting it mildly. She has come with me for work since she has been here and lightened my load. She loves my kids just about as much as I do. She has helped to lift a dark cloud that has loomed over my head and put the sun back in my life where it should be.

I am grateful for you A. I love you more than you could ever know. Really.

A went the WHOLE WAY around the board saying our names. Love that kid! 


GoldieGirl said...

I know how you felt, we have had a rather disappointing year as well, lots of let downs. But good for you for counting your blessings, its not an easy thing to do when you feel bummed. Your niece sounds like a lovely girl, I am very attached to my older sisters children too, they are just how I want my kids to be.

JRoberts said...

If I ever had a girl, I would want my sisters kids. I know she is young yet, but someday I hope to have that same relationship with her.

This year had been tough for most everyone I guess. What a great idea to count blessings. I will have to take your advice and hop on it. :) Thanks for the post. What a great reminder for me.

sochilly said...

If I ever had a girl ... I would want her to be ... Aurora :-). I'm so blessed with an awesome daughter, and appreciate the joy she brings both to my life and others' lives. These pictures are awesome, I truly love to see our kids interact, I can't think of words to describe it, it's so unique and special. I marvel at the wonderful relationship that you & her have created over the years, it truly is something special for both of you! The board is awesome ... Aurora is GREAT at artsy stuff like that (sure didn't get that from her mom!), and her smile says it all ...

Kimara said...

This post was a great reminder to look at the bright side. Counting blessings helps me realize how often the Lord has indeed blessed me! I am glad that you have your Neice with you. I love that you are London's YW leader she love LOVES loves you! Thanks for all the work you do for them.